beware!
7/14/26
for the sake of my story i am going to have to rhyme fish tank with instinct
i need to keep more secrets 2 myself
today i want to be a kid in elementary school at the book fair
7/13/26
weekend color/shading test:
7/10/26
friday
i’m gonna go to the cold war museum tomorrow. apparently there’s a beautiful little garden.
i am most excited to go and read all of the plaques
7/7/26
los angeles may be wearing me out. the sunshine everyday is making me feel like i’m trapped in a video game. it’s like everyday the game is restarting. i think i need some space and some rain. la is a fun place to be happy but maybe a very miserable place to be depressed
i’ve got a good amount of songs for my album now
i’ve gotta add a mermaid into my short somehow
7/6/26
i’m reading breakfast of champions by kurt vonnegut
i used to live below his daughter. in kurt cobain’s old apartment...randomly
photos of them in the apartment. the room in the top pic was my bedroom. we also randomly put baby heads on the mantle and didn’t know that they did as well until we found this pic
7/5/26
i just wanna
7/4/26
i forget....do we count down on the fourth?
6/30/26 - Afternoon
it’s gonna be ok things are good life is silly. i do easily get carried away
6/30/26 - Morning
hello again journal
6/15/26
6/14/26
feeling:
grateful
melancholic
reminiscent
hungry
and for some reason or no reason at all, my feelings are hurt
[i’m gonna start using my markers again soon, hopefully this week. yes!]
it’s so easy to take feeling steady for granted
this week i am going to practice restraint
6/13/26
it’s okay that my animation is going to take me a long time.
it’s okay that my animation is going to take me a long time.
it’s okay that my animation is going to take me a long time.
it’s okay that my animation is going to take me a long time.
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in the era of content a picture is no longer worth 1,000 words. ok!
i feel sick / time to sleep
6/9/26
123 <><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 456
789 <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 101112
i got three yahtzees in one game
all is not lost all is...all is jumpled up into a smoothie or a face cream. i’m not sure what the vehicle is, but the consistency is mush
i want to be in a world like this but i want the vibe to be CCR. before i went to uva, i imagined something of the sort..but..it wasn’t quite that
manet - music in the tuileries
maybe i should change things up, start a CCR cover band & play a bunch of weddings. one of my north stars...chasing the gut feeling that scene would provide. chasing it, finding it, & getting stomach surgery to remove it. 4ever placing it within a jar in a basement...or maybe it needs to stay frozen? ok!
what’s up with that?
my sister found these old pictures of my mom and geez she is such a beautiful lady. it’s funny to know you’ll never be as pretty as your mom was. i’m not saying i don’t think i am pretty or anything....it’s just my mother was sooooooooooooooo beautiful
i read her middle school yearbook once and it was...intense
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i am a mother too!
i luv my babes
6/8/26
i saw paul simon and now i just wanna singgggggggg
also! i’m ravenous. sooooooo very hungry ...i just need to eat a sandwich or some velveeta shells and cheese. yumyumyum
6/2/26
｡☆｡ hiiiiiii ｡☆｡
6/1/26
uh oh i am really starting to isolate myself again...
routine is comforting but it’s also a bit depressing
i want to buy all of these beautiful dresses but i have a bad habit of wearing something once and then forgetting about it forever
working on this spin...i accidentally deleted a frame so it’s a little crazy. it will be drawn with marker. in the past i’ve drawn straight onto paper without planning so much....but...! i am being a perfectionist and there’s a story here that needs to make sense. i have to prove to myself that it makes sense! taking my time and double checking makes me wanna invest more time into myself. idk animation takes so long. seeing progress is important.
this will be the final texture:
5/30/26
had a strawberry margarita today and now i’ve got a headache </3
the amount of content that i ingest every day makes me feel like a tiny tiny tiny little grain of sand at the bottom of a giant trench
i used to think the ocean was fun but now it really freaks me out. i’ve watched too many episodes of i shouldn’t be alive
5/28/26
the laughing woman (1969)5/25/26
i want to go on a ghost tour!
there’s no depth here. i am so shallow nowadays
i came back home to my childhood home to sleep in my bedroom one more time. i don’t think i am gonna sleep in it tho
i will sit on the bed and i will look out of each window
sometimes i’m like...whathappened to me
5/24/26
i wish we could go back to bartering. i never lived it tho, maybe i’m wrong. there’s just a lot of ways to be rewarded that aren’t only cashmoney. i think that having a mentor is pretty priceless. rewarding someone with knowledge of a craft is pretty special. it makes everything feel a bit more purposeful.
happy bday sophie i love u so much
5/21/26
the results came back from my big procedure and it turns out that the acid in my stomach is tearing up the all of the stomach lining, owwwwch... it makes sense as i am always gurgling and twisting up in there. i’m supposed to stay away from all of my favorite foods :(. luckily, there’s nothing much else going on inside. i was worried for a second...
my neighbor across the street is starting to creep me out. he stood over my car while i was parking in a way that was almost too inspired by a horror movie.., ya, he stood over me until i noticed his shadow / gasped a lil. i tried to do a background search but there was a paywall. i guess in a way that sort of made me happy bc ! people are entitled to their privacy ! but ya i never tried that until yesterday. (also keep in mind i had to move out of my last two spots because 1. i caught a guy in my window & 2. another guy was opening all of my mail)... ok
and then... and then
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i want to write more but i am honestly tired and frustrated (for other reasons). i’m sad that my new diet might have to be made up of only ritz crackers when all i really wanna do is eat baja fresh. people have it worse than i do. imagine fighting in the trenches in ww2... i’m just a vapid betch complaining about eating crackers. waaaaaa. ok goodnite
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take to me 2 bajallah!
5/20/26
i had to pick up my meds from target and realized while walking around the bikini aisle that i was reallyreallyhungry. i decided to eat at the panera in the strip mall. LA can’t change me.
i got a full grilled cheese and a side of tomato soup. not half a sandwich and a soup. i walked back into my car and looked at the trash on the floor and thought
god corrinne u are such a mess
then i felt nostalgic for my dad and the mess in his car. and then my mom and the mess in hers....don’t even get me started on my sister. i love that i grew up going to strip mall paneras and that i have a messy car. i love hitting my vape! screw it
5/19/26
it’s silly how quickly time zooms around
5/18/26
i had a procedure today and three people counted down from ten
as the anesthesia watercolored itself into my vein.
anesthesia, the lost princess
about five seconds in, i hummed *i’m still here* and as soon as i realized i was only making dumb jokes for myself...i passed out <3. before they put me under, the anesthesiologist told me i might feel a spicy pain in my hand. he described it as a tingly hot sauce feeling. i was like ok...cool...that doesn’t sound too bad.
right as i was drifting tho, i felt this terrible ache in my hand.
i definitley said out loud,
“this doesn’t feel like hot sauce...this feels lke someone is squishing my hand with a brick” :/
howthehell did they come up with hot sauce?!!!
once, when i was walking on the lawn at uva, a brick fell on my head. the construction guys were really apologetic about it. i didn’t wanna make a big deal. it also didn’t hurt as much as a you think it would. i was more shocked than i was like, owowowowowow. the same year tho, while living in my favorite house ever, a wine bottle fell off of the fridge - hit my head - and then jumped from my head to ground like a bouncy ball. i usually have a high pain tolerance, but it literally hurt so bad i started to cry. i ended up with a violent migraine...worst concussion of my life....
my sister would get these terrible migraines as a kid and only once i had my terrible wine crash, did i really kind of understand what she was actually going through. i felt badly for not empathizing with her more. throwing up because you are in pain sucks. it just doesn’t really make any sense! of course i only understood that once it happened to me! i’m a selfish bitch bro
5/16/26
everything nowadays is irony poisoned. it feels like sincerity is banned.
i went to the tokidoki warehouse sale felt hopeful(?)
i was so excited to get all of these little tokidoki blindboxes + merch.. and all of the people around me were excited for the same reason. i guess the community element felt really nice?
i think i get comic con now (<3) even tho it’s not my thing (i won’t yuck your yum)
recently....i went to coachellaaaaaaa for the first time and was pleasently suprised at how much fun i had burning outside at the campsite....just sitting and watching other people do the same thing...i’malittleantisocial, but i think i’m yearning for real life and community in a way that seems somewhat inaccessible. at least for a person who has been on social media for more than half of her life... that’s fucked up!
listening to blue and i’m feeling like i’m fifteen again!
i miss you alexandriavirginia. i will see you soon
i’m working on my animation btw - it’s just taking me so long bc i’m doing it alll by hand..........
i would rather put my heartandsoul into one thing that takes foreverrrrr i think. but who knows
5/14/26
happy bday to my beautiful best friend liza
i am one or two margaritas deep but i am feeling a little too empathetic tonite
5/10/26
i like aging
once upon a time
5/06/26
my beautiful grandma
no one is my enemy
i’m exhausted but i’ve gotta animate this pretzel
my foot is burning a bit but it’s good
gotta exercise my love of mythology...
isn’t the act of taking something for granted sort of the best way to not take something for granted? that person/place/thing is so integral to you that become unaware of it’s presence? if you were constantly aware of a thing wouldn’t that sort of mean you don’t love it enough to just let it blend into your life? i’m really hungry and sleepy
my ocd is telling me to take back the nihilism comment. there’s a lot of love in my life
5/05/26
It’s my half birthday I am 29.5
I was trying to show geoff this picture of the bottom of my foot and how i’ve burned it pretty hard with salicylic acid but i scrolled too far & showed them a picture i wish i hadn’t...
5/04/26
@Lindsay remeber when we would go to tropical smoothie after school
i would get the peanut paradise smoothie and the veggie wrap
what is the cure for nihilism
i need to be more intentional with my time
i need to listen to music again
Titus (1999)
studying latin was so romantic
listening to this ryan adams song whoops
taking my own advice
05/03/26
i had frozen yogurt for lunch and now i am thinking too much about my body
i miss my family